Girls' Retreat, guys, day-making

Girls retreat will be amazing.

Xochitl and I will be cynical and rant and rave about guys.

I will sing my heart out to Evanescence on the mic (too bad you guys won't hear it, it'll be good).

I will spill my guts and listen to other girls spill their guts, and give & receive support.

Sometimes I can't stand girls. Other times, like these, I absolutely adore them.

PS Guys are officially the most complicated simple things in this universe.
Other large possibility: I think too much.
Conclusion: It's a bit of both.

Paul, Will, James- I love you guys. You all make my day.

Morning thoughts about last afternoon

Hey hey...

I've been realizing how much I absolutely HATE uncertainty. I hate not knowing.
I hate those moments when your happiness depends on how someone else treats you, and for that second you're completely vulnerable. I hate vulnerability. That's something I've been realizing for a while now. That feeling of being in someone else's hands freaks me out, and I mentally slap myself and say, "What do you think you're doing?? Get your act together!"

I've had problems with gluttony lately (I know that sounds weird, but I'm not lying, this is a blog) so I'm taking self-control to the next level. I'm going to basically fast for the next few days. Today, tomorrow, the weekend...I'm going to use prayer and strength from God to get through this. Food is an earthly attachment that is causing me to sin (and gain weight too, for that matter) and I basically...need to stop.

So just let it go, let it go.
Simply drift away...

I don't really expect comments on this one. Or any other one. But especially this one. So it's okay.

So you thought you could escape the stupid forwards. I promise, this will be the only one. It's for the girls to read and go "awwwwww" like we always do.
Guys, I actually DARE you to read this. And I know that now that I've challenged you and your masculinity/egos (no offense to my favorite guys), you have to read it.
Except some of this stuff would make me uncomfortable...but that's just me.
Super mushy gushy stuff.
PS I had a great time at volleyball. Except now Sunday= homework day since I couldn't do any on Friday or today. Wait...its past midnight. Yesterday. Geez. I feel like a....super tired person (emphasis on tired, not super).

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly
6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends
11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back
15-when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved

Are you thinking about someone?

16-always hug her and say i love you when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!..
20 u need to show her you mean it too
21-kiss her on the lips22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff.
you buy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. small things can still helpwe might deny it but we actually like and kinda want you to get us things
26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ON HER.
28-take her anywhere she wants29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you
31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort herremember this next time you are with her36.
When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night44.
Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you love her.

lame vs. deep vs. no relationships

I figured it'd be okay if I vented for just a second about an issue that bothers me.

This issue being relationships.
*deep breath*

What is expected out of highschool relationships? At public schools I'm sure it'd be more "who's hot" and stupid sex stuff, but also, there's that whole "date-and-have-fun-and-then-get-bored-and-break-up" thing. What is that? Should high schoolers even have those kind of relationships? Or any kind, for that matter? What if you care deeply for someone, you love spending time with them, you can be yourself around them, you're good friends...does that lead to a relationship? Or what about you thinking this person is cute (I do NOT use the word hot when referring to people) and you'd like to get to know them...what about that? Is that a time for a "relationship"? (I keep spelling it wrong for the first time...gah!)
What happens when people say, "I think you should like him" and "you'd be so cute together" when you hardly know the person? What if you know that if it ever were to be, it'd be one of those previously mentioned lame relationships? Is it worth it?
Should someone, like me, who has always, and will always, value depth and sincerity and faith in a person, give themselves a "break" and just "let it flow," possibly opening a door to a what is thought will be a purely surface relationsihp (gah!!!!) relationship?

I don't know. I was just thinking... overanalyzing. But hey, what else is new?

PS Do people comment on these? Because, boy, that'd be cool.

V is for Victory!

This is Victoria speaking.

I have created a blog so I can comment on my friends' blogs.

But I may actually write stuff in here, though I have a livejournal too.

I can just do my deep thoughts to impress everyone...or I could post normal stuff. I don't know. We'll see.