I'm not angry...just...um...
"Just be yourself."
What in tarnation does THAT mean?
What if you were told that you'd changed, and the "new you" was not as liked as the old you?
Um...yeah. Ouch. "Being myself" was the purpose of a few conversations and was told to me afterwards as advice when I complained about it. Funny.
If you were told you were changing into someone else, you were all sappy all the time, you were latching onto someone like they were a "freaking" life support system, the real you is disappearing, you only talk about someone, you're acting like a little girl...
...and all this is told to you to help you.
*shrug*
I don't know. Do I act like that much of an idiot? Am I that different all of a sudden?
Sorry guys. I know this post sounds bitter and pessimistic, but I'll admit, I'm kind of hurt.
And I'll get over it, so don't worry...I just had to vent a little bit.
PS Please don't talk about this outside our little blog circle. Thanks.
What in tarnation does THAT mean?
What if you were told that you'd changed, and the "new you" was not as liked as the old you?
Um...yeah. Ouch. "Being myself" was the purpose of a few conversations and was told to me afterwards as advice when I complained about it. Funny.
If you were told you were changing into someone else, you were all sappy all the time, you were latching onto someone like they were a "freaking" life support system, the real you is disappearing, you only talk about someone, you're acting like a little girl...
...and all this is told to you to help you.
*shrug*
I don't know. Do I act like that much of an idiot? Am I that different all of a sudden?
Sorry guys. I know this post sounds bitter and pessimistic, but I'll admit, I'm kind of hurt.
And I'll get over it, so don't worry...I just had to vent a little bit.
PS Please don't talk about this outside our little blog circle. Thanks.
posted by Victoria | 9:43 PM
2 Comments:
Unless you are some sort of superhuman creature, you will always find points in which you look back and say to yourself "man, I acted crappy in that situation" or "I feel really bad about how I treated so and so." And so life lesson number one, other people will always have thing to criticize you about, sometimes it will hit home, sometimes it won't.
Sometimes you pattern your behavior after someone you really like. Wanting to be like someone or wanting to be liked as they are is also common human behavior. Sometimes you will pattern your behavior so that you are not percieved to be like someone else as well. However, you are not "becoming" who they are, becuase at the very root of who you are, you made that choice. They may be who they are naturally, but you chose to be like them. And so life lesson number two we are defined by the choices we do and do not make, not by our external appearances.
It is natural to change. You aren't who you were in third grade, nor will you be the same when you are a junior in college, whether you plan on it or not. SOmeone you meet, something you read, someplace you visit will make you think, and you'll be different for it. Accept it, dont' fight it, and make the best of it. However, keep in mind that you can always change something about yourself if you don't like it. Thats your prerogative. And life lesson number three is that the only thing constant is change, but you are in control of how you change. You may find that who you are or have become is truer to the "real you" than what others think.
Its your choice to be hurt by something others say. But it is also your responsibility to figure out why it hurt you and if it is really true. You can also do something so that such a person will never have the opportunity to say such a thing again.
In the end, just remember that you are in the most formative period of your life. Everything is a learning experience, everyone you meet will leave some mark on you, even if you can't see how. Just accept it with grace and remember that God will never abandon you, even if you have abadoned yourself.
Sorry, I think that last comment was longer than your original post. :)
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